honestsunshine

I know there’s a saying…

There’s a special place in hell for women who don’t help other women.

But I think there should also be one that says:

There’s a special place in hell for women who sleep with married men.

Especially when they know that man’s baby was just born a few months prior. Excuse me if I sound bitter and angry, but I am.

this little baby…

NEEDS to go to sleep. My body is physically shutting down. Pounding headache, running nose, pure exhaustion, all mixed in with some heartbreak.

I love Zoey so much. But when it’s 9 30 at night and we’re both sick it’s not the time to be (happily) screaming and trying to talk and play with random things like a shirt. But I will do it, take care of her and play with her until she passes out herself because I love her so much. More than I ever could have imagined loving another human being. And even if she goes to sleep and wakes up at 2 AM, I will get out of bed and hold her and give her whatever she needs because she is remarkable and special. She makes life worth while. Even when I’m sick as a dog.

So sick…again :(

Started feeling not great a couple days ago. Then worse yesterday with lots of sneezing and a lot of congestion. Now it’s full blown and horrible. I have a high fever and I’m FREEZING. Plus pretty bad congestion and a sore throat. I’ve been living with tissues and tea.

Thank GOD Zoey is starting to feel a little better. I’d much rather be sick than her, but she’s still not great either. I just wish I didn’t feel like I was dying :(